What Am I Supposed To Do

Stream of thoughts from a 23 year old Software Engineer who just quit his job

It's mid-September right now, and I am not where I thought I'd be a year ago, both physically and emotionally. Physically, I'm sitting in a coffee shop in the East Village with a friend. Emotionally, I could not be more lost right now.

It's been almost a month since I quit my Software Engineering job, and the past couple of weeks have been somewhat of a blur. There's a sense of dread hanging over my head that is currently being trumped by a feeling of contentment and mild satisfaction. I think I'm just calm in every sense of the word for the first time in a while, and it is scaring the living sh*t out of me.

How does one figure out what the next step is, who they are, and what actually makes them happy, but not in a weird spiritual way? Rather, in a way that ensures they are not waking up and going to bed with existential dread. That is my goal with this series. I'm not sure how often or how much I will post, but hopefully, something good comes about by learning, discovering, and being curious in public.

I'm excited for what's to come, and excited for whoever reads it to be a part of it.